my want(s)

I simply want to be a good, lovable person.
I want to be happy and cheerful, so everybody can feel the same.
It's nice to be loved by person that I love, but it's fascinating to find love with the unexpected ones.
Honesty, that's a thing I really want to upheld high inside mine.
I really want to be a successful woman with good career and not to be forget, incredible family.
When my children have grown up, I'd like to hear them saying: "Mom, you are my inspiration."
I also want to hear my grandchildren babbling that their grandma's is rocking.
And I want...
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Yeah, i have written some of my want(s). But what can I do to make they happen?
I often feel break down.
I am spending my mind and me too much on others, rather than to myself.
I am careless to my self until I finally get sick.
I think, I need something or someone, which any can be my harbor.
Since I have always be one to everyone who wants to lie at anchor..